I just realized I ain’t young anymore. I find myself an aged man. My six pack turned into a keg, my eyesight has dimmed, my body won’t respond to my demands. I find myself napping midday and not caring about outside opinions.
I try to keep up with a fast world and I can if I want, it’s just that…I don’t want. Social media is a distraction to life and a crutch to many weak egos. I get tired of seeing folk pose in pictures of their backsides.
I remember my youth and it was vastly different and wonderful. Looking back, I’ve did so much, the stories I could tell. The people I’ve met. The mistakes I’ve made. The things I’ve learned. The change I’ve witnessed. The history I’ve observed. The relations I’ve had. No regrets.
Even now I write because of the nudging of a dear acquaintance. True friendly affirmations can have lasting & compounding effects. This truth, is for you, but orchestrated by a peach secret.
Man, I’ve lived a life. So many adventures. So much failure and many more successes. I’ve loved and lost many times over. I am flawed but still evolving, changing and now in a better headspace. As peach would say, “it’s my time.”
I can’t believe I am pushing 50, can you? I still make old look good though. I got grey hairs now and my kids all grown and beyond high school now. I’m a grandpa for Christ’s sake.
The hoary head is a crown of glory, if it be found in the way of righteousness.
Children’s children are the crown of old men; and the glory of children are their fathers.
I say all that the say this. Through it all I am still here amongst the living. Still pushing, grinding, learning and loving. And I will keep ripping roofs off buildings all the days of my life. I will be of service to my Father and to you His children until I transition from this plane to the next.
Man…the first half of my life was so full. I’m excited to see the future. I have journeyed through adolescence, to self sufficiency to a provider role and protector function. Then found my purpose and had to learn how to balance self love and empathy. I’ve dived in the pool of depression and loneliness only to emerge a more rounded ol koot.
I smile now because I am content with the path behind me and my Fathers future for me. How I was designed and my experiences made me who I am. Still flawed and still a work in progress; just older now.